Thursday, September 9, 2010


A year ago today I was admitted to the hospital with low amniotic fluid.  The funny thing I will always remember is that the ultrasound technician that told me about my low fluid was also the one that delivered the news about Hope's heart and could not find her kidney.  I remember telling her when I saw that she was going to do the ultrasound that I was afraid she was going to find something wrong.  It always seemed like every time something 'bad' was found, she was the one that found it.  I was always so happy when she was not the ultrasound technician.

When I found out my fluid was low, I talked the doctors into letting me go home and spend some time with my family before getting admitted to the hospital.  I cried all the way home.  I wanted to get it out before I got home so that I could spend the time I had with my boys happy...not sad.  We spent the last few hours together having a really nice dinner and telling the boys that I would be in the hospital for a little while.  We really had to scramble because Jerry was still working.  I called my mom and asked if she could take some time off work so Jerry could save his FMLA until after Hope was born.

I find myself thinking back to my pregnancy a lot lately and as hard as it was to hear "your daughter has a problem with her heart", I am blessed every day because of her 'problem'.  I took a lot for granted with my boys and we don't take anything for granted anymore.  We cherish every single minute of every single day with our family.  We truly hope everyone does the same. 


  1. Seems like I know a lot of heart moms with their child's birthday coming up - us included. Really hard sometimes to remember what we've gone through, how our journey's began, but also is comforting in a way for me. I have grown so much being a heart mom...and the friends I've made through blogs and such have been priceless =) We are blessed! Hope is a beautiful little girl and I pray she has a wonderful 1st birthday and many more to come!

  2. I remember how worried I was with you when you were in the hospital. It's been a crazy journey for you but through it all you have managed to keep your faith and pull through. You are amazing.
    Hope has changed many lives and I can't wait to one day meet that little September miracle. ((HUGS))

  3. I can't believe Hope is going to be 1. What a crazy, scary and emotional journey. We continue to keep you and all of our other heart families in our prayers. Happy birthday HopE!! Travis is right behind you. We are going with a Yo Gabba Gabba theme! :)