Today is the day Hope goes in for her catheterization and a possible stent in her pulmonary artery. I am scared, nervous, and just plain exhausted thinking about her having another procedure. I worry about her all the time and especially when she has to have another procedure. The cath doesn't scare me nearly as much as what could possibly happen or what they could tell us. I find myself spending far too much time worrying about everything...especially when she looks so good. It just doesn't make sense to me at all. Her sats have been staying in the 80s, she looks great (nice and pink), she is gaining weight (like an ounce a day), and she is only on 1/2 an aspirin a day! I know she has a heart defect, but there are so many times that I forget and then BAM...a cath. Ughhh...it just doesn't fit in my world when I see her thriving at home to think that something might be wrong. I know we are lucky she is doing as good as she is and God has shown us miracle upon miracle. I thank God every single day for all He has done for our family. I know I have to believe He will continue to show us his Grace and I know in my heart I shouldn't spend so much energy worrying...but I do.
Please keep Hope in your thoughts and prayers today!