Tomorrow

Tomorrow is the day we take our sweet princess for her heart catheterization.  It is a huge day for us and emotionally draining.  We know it is necessary and that her next surgery is necessary as well.  It doesn't make it easier to know that we will be handing Hope over to doctors in the morning where she will be put to sleep and have to be intubated.  We have had her home with us for so long and she is such a 'normal' 5 month old baby.  I found the following poem from Stephanie Husted and it really hits home for us today!

Waiting...Hoping...Somehow Coping 

Do I really have to do this?

Why can't I just pretend

That she is just a healthy child

No broken heart to mend.

Why must I watch her closely?

And wonder everyday

If God's plan is a life with us

If God's plans let her stay.

A perfect plan...I know this
She's loved...I know that too
Yet, still I wish I could prevent
All that she must go through.

It's drawing ever closer

That all consuming date

And there is nothing I can do

But love her as we wait.

We'll soon be in that "waiting room"

It just does not seem real

I cry, I vent, I hope, I love

I'm not sure what to feel.

I'm scared, but I am thankful

for all of you who pray

I trust that God will hear your prayers

On our daughter's surgery day.

So I await her future

As I have from the start

With grace along this journey

And hope within my heart.