Well...it seems that my fluid is lower today than it was yesterday (yesterday 6.7, today 5.4), which is not good news. I will be here for another night and probably until Hope is born. I think I got a total of 2 hours of sleep last night, so I am not looking forward to a long stay here. The bed is super uncomfortable and every time I move, the monitor comes off and then the nurse has to come in and move it around.
I have another ultrasound in the morning and if the fluid is lower than it was today, Dr. Silber will schedule the induction for later tomorrow or Saturday morning. The fear they have is that if the fluid gets too low, she will have a hard time moving around and may end up on her cord and that would mean she could pass away before she is even born...and I don't want that to happen.
I am still hoping for more fluid, but Dr. Silber feels that even if she does increase her fluid, it would still be best for me to be in the hospital being monitored until Hope is ready to be born. I am not at all prepared for Hope to be born, but I have a feeling I will never be prepared for her to be born. I am so scared about the delivery and even more nervous about how sick she might be when she is born. I have been alone a lot today and have spent most of the day crying. I can't seem to stop and I know that I need to try and stay positive. I have spent so much time praying and I know that God will answer my prayers in the best way he knows how.
I will update more tomorrow after the ultrasound. I am praying that her heartrate stays up through the night and that I can get a little sleep.