Another Poem I Love

Stephanie Husted writes the most beautiful and knowing poems:

I had plans...
such perfect plans...
of how our life would be...
A perfect job, a perfect home...
a perfect family.

It seemed like it should be that way...
(of course we'd have our trials)
But most days would be sunshine...
Laughter,love, and smiles...

And then, as I held pictures...
of my child, not yet born...
And heard the words "a heart defect"...
My own heart became torn.

First came the "Hows"...
Then came the "Whys"...
Then came the question...
What if my child dies?

Hiding for a little while...
trying so hard just to cope...
Wondering will she be okay?
living each moment with hope...

I thought that perhaps,someday...
I could breathe with a sigh of relief...
And know that  she will be okay...
And let go of my grief...

It seems that moment doesn't come...
As each day starts anew...
I realize I must start each day...
By giving her to You...

Whatever Your plan for her life is...
I trust that it's written with care...
And You are God no matter what...
(Even when life isn't fair)

So I will really LOVE today...
So thankful that she's here...
And give her too many kisses...
And try to let go of my fear...

I'll try not to be so resentful...
And remember that life is for living...
I'll smile just knowing, she's here with us now...
And hold tightly to each day we're given.

~Stephanie Husted